Cut my hair by myself

  So i cut my bangs for the first time by myself. I was really nervous. I was worried i was going to really mess up my hair and have to go to Maria and ask her to save me hahaha. But it actually turned out okay and really cute. Not bad for my first time. I like how it looks. I think it fits me. Not sure if il do it again though lol. Well i guess thats all for now not much to say but that today.

NEW MOON!!!

  Okay so last night i went to the premire for NEW MOON!!! And omg it was Amazing!!! I love Jacob Black! it was so much better than Twiligh they did such a good job on it!!! I went with Kayla and Schellie was there with her sister also Anya and Aaron. Oh yeah and goofy Frankie was there too, of course schellie and i had to go in sperate theaters but Frank was in mine. [[figures]] but it was fun i had a great time. I was Amazing im so seeing it again on monday with Frank and Schellie!!!

  I love Jacob! They did such a great job oh the Wolves!!! They were HUGE!!!! Massive things! They looked so awesome though!! It was so cool, Im really looking forward to the 3rd one because thats when Jacob and Edward really get into it. They almost did at the end!! That was wow. I loved it. It kinda sorts stayed with book a little bit more than twilight which was good. Imma have very little sleep this weekend but its gonna be awesome! Tonight i babysit Melissa :) Shes so cute i love her. Shes so smart to for a 1 year old. Then on saturday night i babysit for my aunt. That should be another late night ^_^ but imma have so much fun. I love babysitting and everything that goes along with it. Its so fun.

  Were off of school this next week yay!!! Imma start going to school in the mornings now. 7:35 to 11:30 am. It works out so much better that way. I just hope i can get up and go to school that early hehehe. Im looking forward to it though. Im excited about everything right now. Maybe things will go my way from now on. Either way im happy. Lookin Forward to Thanksgiving!!! I love seeing my family ^_^

South V.S. North

  So last night it was my first time going to a South game. It was fun i guess i really didnt watch the game i was walking around with Destany the whole time and not paying attention to the game at all so i guess its all good. Saw a bunch of people i havent seen in a while. Destany Spent the night. Theres a lot going on right now. So many emotions all rolle into one. All stirring inside me. Theres a lot i want that cant have. Theres a lot i want but not sure i really want it all. Im not sure what to do or think still. I just dont know any more. Theres only a few things im certain of. All the rest is just a big question mark and sort of a blur. I guess ill figure out someday but im ready for that day to come now. Sigh. Time takes way to dangum long. It needs to hurry up and be Thanksgiving, Christams, and March. Thats really the only things im looking forward to. Family and my baby. The only things that keep me going and motivated to stay on this earth and to fight the deep depression that is trying to set into me. Its really hard to fight it somethimes. But i always have my family and my baby boy to get me out of it and into a happy mood again. I love them so much. I want a girl. I want an Emily Michelle. I want Jack. I want a good man. I want everything. Who knows when ill get them. Only god knows. I juat hope that maybe someday soon i will have them. well two out of the three :)  

Young Women in Excellence 2009

  Young Women in Excellence this year was the Emma Awards (Emmy Adward) theme so every girl was to wear a formal dress. Every single girl in our young women cam except for one :) It was so elegant and beauitufl. All of the girls look just beautiful in their dresses. We had like a dress swap thing the Sunday before so we all were wearing eachothers dresses but still looked equally beautiful.

  As for me it was my first time ever wearing a formal dress so it was extremly weird for me to actually be wearing one. I did feel very pretty and elegant in it though. I loved it, it was one of the best young women in excellence weve had in a while :) Reveau did such a great job i love her <3 I was really nervous though cause i had to speak on Choice and Accountability. But i think i did somewhat okay on what i said and it turned out okay in the end.

  Since it was the Emma Awards we all got an Emma award and everything was elegant and fancy, like wine glasses and "Champane" (sparking cider lol idk if i spelled that right) and we had everything chocolate!!!! Yummy!! I finally got my chocolate coverd strawberries! Ive been craving them like for 2 months before baby Jack was born and i finally got them yesterday!! Yay lol they were delicious. Thats and cookies and bunt cake and lots more. Over all it was a really great night. It was fun to get all dressed up and pretty for one night. It was something i havent done before so it was a really neat experiance. I definalty want to do it again. It was really fun.

Kayla in her beautiful dress

Kayla and Anthony Being silly after we got home :)

 Me and Kayla arent we cute?? lol

My sleepy little Nathan, lol we were all tired after we came home yesterday <3

Me, Kayla, and Anthony being silly lol.

Almost a Jr!!!!

 Yay!!! Im only 1 and 1/2 credits away from becoming a jr!!!! Im so excited and more determined than ive ever been to graduate this year. Im so excited. My new goal is to graduate by March before i go see Jack in Arizona. Well see if that happens or not it may be pushing it but hey i can do it if i really work hard and put my mind to it :) It wont be too long before im out on my own which is really scary once i think about it. I wanna work and stuff next year but then again i dont. I wanna be out on my own but then again i dont. Being an adult is a lot of hard work but i guess its all worth it in the end. Well anyways i guess ill just have to see how everthing goes. Im just so excited that im almost caught up to where im suppose to be. I will reach me goal :)

Nathans Birthday Party/Halloween

  So yesterday was Halloween whoo hoo whatever, night as great as i was planning for it to be for me, but we had Nathans 5th birthday party yesterday during the day and he had the best time. He was happy the entire day having cake, opening his presents and the putting on his coustume and finally playing with his sword, then going trick-or-treating. Nathan, Kayla and Anthony were happy the entire day so i guess thats all that really matters to me in the end, no matter how my day turned out to be.

Heres Nate Nates G.I. Joe birthday cake. It was really good and Nathan loves anything G.I. Joe so it was perfect for him and it was also cool to see how the orininal G.I. Joe looked as well. Personally i think the new G.I. Joe movie and hottie Channing Tatum is way better than the cartoon lol :) But thats just me.

 

So onto Halloween, Nathan was Snake Eyes and Anthony was Strom Shadow from G.I. Joe of course, i knew as soon as the movie came out that they would want to be either them or Duke. So it really wasnt much of a suprise. They looked so cute, the only thing was Nathan couldnt wear the visor thingy that went over his face because it was way too big. But he stil looked so cute so it was okay in the end.

Lol so this was at Trunk-ot Treat at church and we ran out of candy at this point and my dad wanted to shut the door but i was comfortable and didnt want to get out of the back so i just stayed there with my feet haning out lol. My mom took a picture and this is wat i looked like. Dnt you just love my boots?? lol. Some people at the church were having fun with that, and my dad gotta kick out of it too. So thats the story behind that. It was a nice Halloween momet. One of the few for me at least :)

Jack was Zorro for Halloween. He looks so, so adorably cute. I love his little mask and hat. Marianne did a wonderful job on his costume. I cant believe his 2 months old today its just so crazy. Marianne told me he didnt like the hat and mask very much so they only put them on him for pictures and thats it. I kind of figured he wouldnt like it cause hes so little, it still turned out good and well. Hes just dang cute i love him so much. Hes my motivation in life <3

Heres another one of Jack without his Mask on but he still has that same adorable cutness. Hes getting so chunky i love it. Just look at those chubby cheeks!!!! Hes getting so big. Its hard to believe hes 2 months already. Time has gone by so fast its unbelievable. So here are some more pictures of Jack that ive gotten from Clint and Marianne. Theyre really good at getting the right moments in the camrea. I love the pictures they take of little Jack.

My Suprise Party

  Here are some pictures from the Suprise party my mom and Reaveu threw me a couple weeks ago. I finally got them from my moms camera lol. It was a great night i love it and ervyone that came to support me! Thank you so much everyone!! I really appriecate everything youve done for me throight this whole experiance :).

heres me opening my pressents :)

Kayla being silly :)

Over all it was a great night and i had lots of fun. Ill never forget it and never forget who was there for me. it was much appreciate and much, much needed. Thank you all, i love you guys. Your all amazing <3