Family

  Family is the most impertant thing to me. Latley its been really hectic and crazy. The economy is in a downward spiral, its taken a huge toll on all of us. The world is getting worse, everyone knows it. People arent how they used to be. Common courtsey and respect is almost non-existant. Theres only one thing that gets me through the day and thats my family. No were not perfect, we argue and fight, have our disagreements, not always see eye to eye.... but at the end of a long stressful day we always come together and pray for the good of everyone around us. We laugh and be our silly selves. The boys will usually do something totally random and out there to make the day a little brighter. Knowing that Jack is spoiled and the happiest baby ever makes the days a little more stress-free.

  We always need something. More of something weather its money or food, theres always something we are in need of. We may not get it right away or at all. Theres always a reason why we do or dont though. Theres always something that gets us through it. Friends, a husband or wife, your kids, a pet, or family like it is for me :) My family has been trying something new. Every night we have been reading the scriputres and saying family prayer along with exersicing! Getting back into shape will beinfit all of us in the long run and well now for that matter. Its been so fun and hiarious. It has been hard though, you know how hard it is to laugh and run at the same time??? And not like hehe laugh i mean like laugh your hardest till you almost pee while your trying to run at the same time??? haha not that comfortable to your stomach muscles thats for sure!

  Anyway its been really fun at night time. Plus with all the activity its also been helping us fall asleep and stay asleep all night long :) That has helped sooo much! Nathan is so cute all the time (well not all the time, when hes asking a million and one questions it tends to get a little omg shhh) but i love him anyway. Anthony is the jokester like always and he seems to always have some funny smart comment for everything. I love my little men :) Kayla is kayla. Shes been getting better, i always enjoy her hugs and smiles when i get them :) Mommy and daddy have been stressed but dose that stop them from hugging and kissing in front of us to gross us out??? NO!!! yuck! hahaha but honestly id rather them do that in from of us instead of not at all :] They still joke and play around with us, I love my family so much. They mean the world to me and make me appreciate what i have and not complain about what i dont have. Id be nothing without them and i thank them each and everyday :] Love you guys with all my heart!!!

Little Nathan

My daddy being silly

Me and Anthomy just being us dorks :P

My beautiful Mommy

Beautiful Kayla :)

Who am i?

  Waves crash around me. Moolight shines upon me. The breeze blows gently across my face. The water reflects the worry in my face. I no longer see the girl i once knew to be me. The refelects a stranger. How did this stranger come to be me? Where has the real me gone to? Why wont she come back? Some how along the way i have lost what i know to be true. The innocent girl inside me has disaperd and left me entirely. The smell of sea salt is heavy in the air. The crystal clear blue water refelcts the truth. How desperatly i want it to lie and reflect that i once was. The mistakes of the past shines within the stars. The water is cool, the waves are relaxing, gently rocking me back and forth. I plead for forgivness, for acceptance. I plead that maybe one day my relfection will show not a stranger, but a forgiven woman who has finally found her way. A woman strong enough to take on the world, a woman smart enough not to repeat the past mistakes. Waves crash around me. The pink, oragne, and yellow of the sunrise shines upon me. The breeze is gental, and cool upon my face. The beautiful blue water reflects the truth, it reflects a face not of worry, but a soft smile, a face of hope.


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  I got to thinking of the past. Everything that has hppend and i wanted to record how i felt at my lowest. this dosent exactly state how i felt but its close enough and is sugar coated. i know the past is the past and it should stay that way. sometimes i wonder what happend? how did my life get to this? how did i get to this point? who is this person staring back at me in the mirror??? Is it just me? or has anyone else felt like this at one time in there life? i feel like this is the last person i wanted to be. sometimes i wonder how we could go from innocent babies and childeren to being the people we are now. Theres all kinds of people, that do the most horrible things in life but at one point they had innocence and kindness. What happend? Just been think about this kind of stuff. Hopefully ill get the answer one day :)

  -Briana-