Who am i?

  Waves crash around me. Moolight shines upon me. The breeze blows gently across my face. The water reflects the worry in my face. I no longer see the girl i once knew to be me. The refelects a stranger. How did this stranger come to be me? Where has the real me gone to? Why wont she come back? Some how along the way i have lost what i know to be true. The innocent girl inside me has disaperd and left me entirely. The smell of sea salt is heavy in the air. The crystal clear blue water refelcts the truth. How desperatly i want it to lie and reflect that i once was. The mistakes of the past shines within the stars. The water is cool, the waves are relaxing, gently rocking me back and forth. I plead for forgivness, for acceptance. I plead that maybe one day my relfection will show not a stranger, but a forgiven woman who has finally found her way. A woman strong enough to take on the world, a woman smart enough not to repeat the past mistakes. Waves crash around me. The pink, oragne, and yellow of the sunrise shines upon me. The breeze is gental, and cool upon my face. The beautiful blue water reflects the truth, it reflects a face not of worry, but a soft smile, a face of hope.


1-11-10

  I got to thinking of the past. Everything that has hppend and i wanted to record how i felt at my lowest. this dosent exactly state how i felt but its close enough and is sugar coated. i know the past is the past and it should stay that way. sometimes i wonder what happend? how did my life get to this? how did i get to this point? who is this person staring back at me in the mirror??? Is it just me? or has anyone else felt like this at one time in there life? i feel like this is the last person i wanted to be. sometimes i wonder how we could go from innocent babies and childeren to being the people we are now. Theres all kinds of people, that do the most horrible things in life but at one point they had innocence and kindness. What happend? Just been think about this kind of stuff. Hopefully ill get the answer one day :)

  -Briana-