Christmas

  Im kinda late but hey better late than never :) Christmas this year was amazing. We had a small Christmas but honestly it was better than the biggest Christmas ever. I got all of my family Christmas gifts and they all loved them so much that i think made me happier than anything else. I got some gifts i love and i was happy about. The biggest thing im grateful for this year is that everyone in my family was healthy on and happy on Christmas day. And of course Jack. Im happy he has entered my life and looking back i wouldnt do anything different or change anything about my past. Im so grateful for Clint and Marianne for taking care of my little boy when i cant, they give him everything and that means the absoulte world to me. No words can express the realife, love, and gratitude i have towards them. Theyre great! Thank you so much Clint and Marianne :)

  Over all this year went great. It also went like super fast, its like i just blinked and then Christmas is here and now its almost new years!!! Cant believe how fast this year has gone, i hope 2010 sticks around a little longer than 2009 did. This year, i turned 16, had a beautiful baby boy i absoulty adore and love to death, gotten closer to my family and my heavenly father, and im currently working on getting my liscence, a car and hopefully ill be working by the time the new yea rolls around :) very productive year!! and one i will never forget!!! I cant wait to see what 2010 has in store for me!!!!

Christmas is almost here!!!

I cant believe christmas is almost here!!!! This year has gone by so quickly it felt like i just blinked and poof!!!!! Christmas time is here. Lol. I cant wait for Chirstmas its always my favorite time of the year, i love having my whole family together and having so much fun. Getting presents is also nice but i like having my family around and joking and messing with eachother :) Plus its that much closer to March when i get to see Jack!!! im really looking forward to it!!!

  We put all our Christmas decorations out a couple of weeks ago but i havent had the time to post pics so ill do it now :) We dont have much decorations but its something. The boys did such a great job on decorating the tree everythings spread out and not all together lol way to go boys!!! I got everyone in my family a Christmas gift so those are under the tree. And i gave some money to Anthony to get everyone a gift at his school Christmas store. I cant wait to see everyones faces when they open theyre presents its always my favorite part when i get people stuff. Cannot wait its going to be a blast. I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and a Wonderful New Year!!!!!!!

3 Months old and Laughing!

Cant Believe Jack is 3 months old! He laughed!!!! For the first time last saturday he laughed! Clint and Marianne posted two viedos of him laughing and hes so darn adorbale!! I make cute kids hahahaha. Hes so precious i love him. Time goes by way to fast though, 3 months have gone by like 3 days. Cant wait until March gets here so i can see Jack, Clint and Marianne again! I miss all of them. I was Christmas shopping and it was really wierd cause this year i have a son to buy for! Why couldnt they have all the cute baby stuff when i was a baby???? The stuff they have is awesome! I want to play with most of the toys they have for babys lol. Heres some new pics of Little Jack :)

Jack in his Chair :)

Aother one of Jack in his chair

Jack Poseing for the camera already lol. Cutie Pie.

Baby Jack Jack Cute as ever :)

Cut my hair by myself

  So i cut my bangs for the first time by myself. I was really nervous. I was worried i was going to really mess up my hair and have to go to Maria and ask her to save me hahaha. But it actually turned out okay and really cute. Not bad for my first time. I like how it looks. I think it fits me. Not sure if il do it again though lol. Well i guess thats all for now not much to say but that today.

NEW MOON!!!

  Okay so last night i went to the premire for NEW MOON!!! And omg it was Amazing!!! I love Jacob Black! it was so much better than Twiligh they did such a good job on it!!! I went with Kayla and Schellie was there with her sister also Anya and Aaron. Oh yeah and goofy Frankie was there too, of course schellie and i had to go in sperate theaters but Frank was in mine. [[figures]] but it was fun i had a great time. I was Amazing im so seeing it again on monday with Frank and Schellie!!!

  I love Jacob! They did such a great job oh the Wolves!!! They were HUGE!!!! Massive things! They looked so awesome though!! It was so cool, Im really looking forward to the 3rd one because thats when Jacob and Edward really get into it. They almost did at the end!! That was wow. I loved it. It kinda sorts stayed with book a little bit more than twilight which was good. Imma have very little sleep this weekend but its gonna be awesome! Tonight i babysit Melissa :) Shes so cute i love her. Shes so smart to for a 1 year old. Then on saturday night i babysit for my aunt. That should be another late night ^_^ but imma have so much fun. I love babysitting and everything that goes along with it. Its so fun.

  Were off of school this next week yay!!! Imma start going to school in the mornings now. 7:35 to 11:30 am. It works out so much better that way. I just hope i can get up and go to school that early hehehe. Im looking forward to it though. Im excited about everything right now. Maybe things will go my way from now on. Either way im happy. Lookin Forward to Thanksgiving!!! I love seeing my family ^_^

South V.S. North

  So last night it was my first time going to a South game. It was fun i guess i really didnt watch the game i was walking around with Destany the whole time and not paying attention to the game at all so i guess its all good. Saw a bunch of people i havent seen in a while. Destany Spent the night. Theres a lot going on right now. So many emotions all rolle into one. All stirring inside me. Theres a lot i want that cant have. Theres a lot i want but not sure i really want it all. Im not sure what to do or think still. I just dont know any more. Theres only a few things im certain of. All the rest is just a big question mark and sort of a blur. I guess ill figure out someday but im ready for that day to come now. Sigh. Time takes way to dangum long. It needs to hurry up and be Thanksgiving, Christams, and March. Thats really the only things im looking forward to. Family and my baby. The only things that keep me going and motivated to stay on this earth and to fight the deep depression that is trying to set into me. Its really hard to fight it somethimes. But i always have my family and my baby boy to get me out of it and into a happy mood again. I love them so much. I want a girl. I want an Emily Michelle. I want Jack. I want a good man. I want everything. Who knows when ill get them. Only god knows. I juat hope that maybe someday soon i will have them. well two out of the three :)  

Young Women in Excellence 2009

  Young Women in Excellence this year was the Emma Awards (Emmy Adward) theme so every girl was to wear a formal dress. Every single girl in our young women cam except for one :) It was so elegant and beauitufl. All of the girls look just beautiful in their dresses. We had like a dress swap thing the Sunday before so we all were wearing eachothers dresses but still looked equally beautiful.

  As for me it was my first time ever wearing a formal dress so it was extremly weird for me to actually be wearing one. I did feel very pretty and elegant in it though. I loved it, it was one of the best young women in excellence weve had in a while :) Reveau did such a great job i love her <3 I was really nervous though cause i had to speak on Choice and Accountability. But i think i did somewhat okay on what i said and it turned out okay in the end.

  Since it was the Emma Awards we all got an Emma award and everything was elegant and fancy, like wine glasses and "Champane" (sparking cider lol idk if i spelled that right) and we had everything chocolate!!!! Yummy!! I finally got my chocolate coverd strawberries! Ive been craving them like for 2 months before baby Jack was born and i finally got them yesterday!! Yay lol they were delicious. Thats and cookies and bunt cake and lots more. Over all it was a really great night. It was fun to get all dressed up and pretty for one night. It was something i havent done before so it was a really neat experiance. I definalty want to do it again. It was really fun.

Kayla in her beautiful dress

Kayla and Anthony Being silly after we got home :)

 Me and Kayla arent we cute?? lol

My sleepy little Nathan, lol we were all tired after we came home yesterday <3

Me, Kayla, and Anthony being silly lol.

Almost a Jr!!!!

 Yay!!! Im only 1 and 1/2 credits away from becoming a jr!!!! Im so excited and more determined than ive ever been to graduate this year. Im so excited. My new goal is to graduate by March before i go see Jack in Arizona. Well see if that happens or not it may be pushing it but hey i can do it if i really work hard and put my mind to it :) It wont be too long before im out on my own which is really scary once i think about it. I wanna work and stuff next year but then again i dont. I wanna be out on my own but then again i dont. Being an adult is a lot of hard work but i guess its all worth it in the end. Well anyways i guess ill just have to see how everthing goes. Im just so excited that im almost caught up to where im suppose to be. I will reach me goal :)

Nathans Birthday Party/Halloween

  So yesterday was Halloween whoo hoo whatever, night as great as i was planning for it to be for me, but we had Nathans 5th birthday party yesterday during the day and he had the best time. He was happy the entire day having cake, opening his presents and the putting on his coustume and finally playing with his sword, then going trick-or-treating. Nathan, Kayla and Anthony were happy the entire day so i guess thats all that really matters to me in the end, no matter how my day turned out to be.

Heres Nate Nates G.I. Joe birthday cake. It was really good and Nathan loves anything G.I. Joe so it was perfect for him and it was also cool to see how the orininal G.I. Joe looked as well. Personally i think the new G.I. Joe movie and hottie Channing Tatum is way better than the cartoon lol :) But thats just me.

 

So onto Halloween, Nathan was Snake Eyes and Anthony was Strom Shadow from G.I. Joe of course, i knew as soon as the movie came out that they would want to be either them or Duke. So it really wasnt much of a suprise. They looked so cute, the only thing was Nathan couldnt wear the visor thingy that went over his face because it was way too big. But he stil looked so cute so it was okay in the end.

Lol so this was at Trunk-ot Treat at church and we ran out of candy at this point and my dad wanted to shut the door but i was comfortable and didnt want to get out of the back so i just stayed there with my feet haning out lol. My mom took a picture and this is wat i looked like. Dnt you just love my boots?? lol. Some people at the church were having fun with that, and my dad gotta kick out of it too. So thats the story behind that. It was a nice Halloween momet. One of the few for me at least :)

Jack was Zorro for Halloween. He looks so, so adorably cute. I love his little mask and hat. Marianne did a wonderful job on his costume. I cant believe his 2 months old today its just so crazy. Marianne told me he didnt like the hat and mask very much so they only put them on him for pictures and thats it. I kind of figured he wouldnt like it cause hes so little, it still turned out good and well. Hes just dang cute i love him so much. Hes my motivation in life <3

Heres another one of Jack without his Mask on but he still has that same adorable cutness. Hes getting so chunky i love it. Just look at those chubby cheeks!!!! Hes getting so big. Its hard to believe hes 2 months already. Time has gone by so fast its unbelievable. So here are some more pictures of Jack that ive gotten from Clint and Marianne. Theyre really good at getting the right moments in the camrea. I love the pictures they take of little Jack.

My Suprise Party

  Here are some pictures from the Suprise party my mom and Reaveu threw me a couple weeks ago. I finally got them from my moms camera lol. It was a great night i love it and ervyone that came to support me! Thank you so much everyone!! I really appriecate everything youve done for me throight this whole experiance :).

heres me opening my pressents :)

Kayla being silly :)

Over all it was a great night and i had lots of fun. Ill never forget it and never forget who was there for me. it was much appreciate and much, much needed. Thank you all, i love you guys. Your all amazing <3

Updates

  Okay so i had to create a new blog, i couldnt do anything with my old one so this is my new one! Things have been great with me over the past couple of weeks. My wonderful mother threw me a surpise party!!! My first one ever and of course i had no clue what was going on and she was planning it like a month before Jack was born! Talk about sneaky!!! haha but it was great i loved it and i think i finally saw all the support and love i have around me. Sure i saw it when Jack was born cause like everyone i knew came to see me, but like everything else when i was in the hospital nothing seemed real if that makes any sense.

  I think i was still in that schock. I dont know really everything was really new to me then, actually having a Baby Boy was a lot to take in. But anyway the party was great and i really didnt expect anyone to get me anything! That was so great! I got so many amazing gifts and i love every single one i got. I got lots of money which allowed me to get my Jeans that ive been wanting for a long time along with my boots, Tempted book and a haircut that i really needed (my hair was driving me crazy). I love my haircut, i havent had it this short in a while though im still getting used to it, i took off about 4 inches. I loooove my jeans and boots!!! and everything else i got i love all of you guys who support me and love me! i couldnt have done it without you!

  So updating on the Family, my baby Nate Nate turned 5 on the 26th!!! Hes getting so big!! I cant believe hes 5 already, i want him to go back to being a baby just coming out of my mom. Although i dont think shed like that idea very much or my daddy haha. Anyway were gonna have his party tomorrow! On Halloween!!! Its so awesome! Busy busy day tomorrow though i have Nathans party and then Trick-or-treating with some friends when it gets dark :) Cant wait its going to be lots of fun. Ill post pictures and stuff later on :)

  Jack is going to be Zorro for Halloween! That is going to be soo cute!! I cant wait to get pictures from Clint and Marianne. That is going to be so adorable. I miss him, hes smiling a whole lot more from what Marianne tells me. He is so going to have Blue or Hazel eyes! They are still so blue its beautiful especially because he has dark hair. I love it, I Love him! Yeah it gets hard somtimes because i still have all the motherly intincs and i narutally worry way too much but i always get through it and i always remember he has so much more than he would have if i had kept him with me. I always remember that he is in good hands. And very, very, very much loved, there as well as here. Well i guess thats all for now update you later :)

  ~Bri~